Schtuff

So I am sick as a dog on this Chantrix stuff BUT I have quit smoking because of it. Also packing on the poundage as I usually do when I quit. Ugh.

All this wedding talk and its really hitting me, I'm alone. Thank goodness there won't be a church part to the wedding, I would so hate to walk down the aisle alone to be seated. Sit through it all alone. I'm going to dread the picture part, standing by myself with the kids for the family picture. Trying to pay for stuff. Trying to make the right decisions on stuff. Alone sucks. I was a duo for 33 years, this just isn't right. But, I'm thinking fireworks at the engagement party, they're legal where I live, lol, maybe that will liven shit up.

It's been this many jobs since I haven't been hired: 3.

The poison ivy has started to clear up thank goodness!

I'm sooooooooooo bored. Janet do NOT say it. "Only boring people get bored". Yeah I know and yes I'm boring. sigh.

Botox party, my house.

I'm reading a hilarious book: The Clapper. Alternately trying to get through the Suze Orman books which is depressing as all hell so I think it's a good balance.