The Winds of Change They Are Blowin......

the cobwebs from my brain.

Okay, nasty little bout of depression over and done with. And just in time too, I have a job interview at 4:30 today. Please wish me well and pray to St. Therese ok? It would be so nice to live like a human and not travel 4 hours a day to work. Let's see travel time, total, round trip would be like 20 minutes tops, on a bad day, in the rain, stopping for gas......

But even if this is not the one, I'll be okay with it (no I won't) and will keep trying. Trying is very trying no?

Any day now I will be hearing that my engagement ring has been deployed to a special someone and that wedding bells will be ringing. If i start dieting now maybe I'll lose some poundage by next April? You know that savings account I thought I had? Poof.

Okay people, carry on.

You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
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CLOSED

sorry, major large scale depression happening

Leave It To Mom

to point out exactly where the Jester's b(e)(a)ll is positioned:

I Woke Up and

I'm effen fiddy two.

You Are a Ham Sandwich

You are quiet, understated, and a great comfort to all of your friends. Over time, you have proven yourself as loyal and steadfast. And you are by no means boring. You do well in any situation - from fancy to laid back. Your best friend: The Turkey Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich

What Kind of Sandwich Are You?

13 Reasons to have Hope!

1. Really guys, the novena. If'n y'all keep me in your thoughts and prayers too then I have NO DOUBT I'll get a new job by June.

2. The dogs are losing weight, ergo, I will lose weight.

3. I was accepted last night for the September coaching mentoring program and told to join PSA asap!

4. At the rink I'm known as "that fun coach".

5. I still have a few bucks in the bank.

6. Dude, I'm going to Disney tomorrow!

7. My nephew will stay at my house while I'm gone so the dogs won't have to go to the kennel.

8. I just feel inspired for no particular reason.

9. I'm a survivor through whatever life tests I've had so far.

10. I'm really a nice and caring person hiding behind a New York state of mind.

11. Can you say 4 days off?!

12. I have real friends who are bloggers, not blogger friends who aren't real.

13. You!

In Which I Blurt Out Many Things In Random Order

1. Most important, on the last day of May I will spend the last day at this job. Unless of course I get a new one faster. I'm doing a novena to St. Therese the Little Flower (which is who I'm named after for my middle name and I promise to start using it again).

2. Two more days until Disney. Can I just mention here that it's the Happiest fucking place on earth?

3. Cut my hair, short and curly. What a difference!I feel so much better, gonna get my nails done too.

4. Have to thank this I quit/you're fired situation, I no longer feel so damn defined by my work. Kinda of free! Wheeeeeeeeeeee! (Until I go broke of course).

5. I've been really sucky at being a good friend this past month while the tornado was brewing here.

6. I have a headhunter named Lori working on my behalf who is very hopeful that something will break soon. I'm hoping to hear from her on my birthday which is: the last day of the St. Therese novena, the day after I get back from Disney. May 8th.

7. Unfortunately the stress has cause me to fall off the non-smoking wagon but what the hell else is new.

8. Setting up a Labor Day camping trip, want to join us?

9. I'm getting more work as a sub-coach than having my own class, tres weird! But it is fun to get to work with different kids all the time, keep me and them on our toes, so to speak.

10. So all in all, the glass is half full dudes and dudettes.

FRIDAY FILL IN

1. I love a Parade.(you have to be an oldie to remember that one)
2. Cake, bread, carb stuff is my downfall.
3. I went to the gym to lose weight, but I gained!
4. Green is my favorite Color.
5. If I had a hammer I'd hammer in the morning (must be the day for old songs).
6. One of my favorite things to enjoy is walking in the woods.
7. I'm going to do yardwork this weekend!

New Toy

I bought a video ipod and just downloaded from podcasts:
Ellen DeGeneres Show
Mr. Deity

Any suggestions for other podcast videos?

13 Quirky Phobias

Janet, this is for you (and she'll think up 13 more guaranteed):

1. Men with fat fingers
2. Touching styrofoam peanuts
3. Touching cotton stuffed in aspirin bottles
4. Eating anything that looks like phlegm (oysters, etc.)
5. Eating anything that just basically looks weird
6. Driving manual transmissions - NOT EVER
7. People with unusually big heads
8. Sitting directly on grass
9. Swimming with living things
10. That space between the elevator and the floor when the doors open
11. Freaking if I'm late, even by a minute
12. Mispronunciations by others can make me nuts
13. Cracking your knuckles makes me barf

Catch Up

I think this post will go backwards in time since I haven't written diddlysquat in a while.

Sunday: okay what's this? Why this is my team photo. What are we sporting? Why is that a gold medal? Oh yes it is. I'm the tubby one second in on the bottom left.

I had a great skate for my farewell performance. I've decided not to skate synchro anymore and to concentrate on passing my tests for a mentorship for coaching.

Saturday: Robb came home on leave, they are in port for about 1.5 weeks. So I'll have some company (lawn mowing) for a while.

Let me just inject here that the weather effing SUCKS.

Friday: Got down the summer clothes to go through them for the Disney trip. UGH, most of those suckers are going into the giveaway bag.

I did make it to the gym twice last week and did a good sweaty workout. Also met with a headhunter on Thursday for a nice lunch at Legal Seafood. I'm optimistic, but it can a long process until I find the "cherry" job. Wish me luck.

FRIDAY FILL IN

1. When I need inspiration I read, read, read!
2. Being by myself is my favorite way to recharge my batteries.
3. I never get sick of pizza.
4. One of my fondest memories is any Christmas when the boys were small.
5. Robert always makes me laugh.
6. I am handy, smart and diplomatic!
7. This weekend, I'm looking forward to my last competition of this season which was way too long.

13 Things About Me and Dead Folks

1. After my sister died I started "hearing" other peoples dead mothers.
2. Yes I could be absolutely crazy and not really hearing them, but apparently when I relay it, it fits.
3. Thank goodness the only people I've relayed messages too were accepting and friends.
4. Most of the time they are telling me what to do when they visit.
5. I would love to "hear" from my husband and my sister.
6. I keep one seat in my car free of junk in case someone wants a ride.
7. I think I need to learn Morse code cause the lamp in the second bedroom sometimes goes batshit with blinking and it's not a pattern.
8. Chief the big brown dog always lays on the other side of the bed but on rare occassions he's on my side and refuses move to the other one, and he's a pretty obedient guy. I think it's Dan in the bed.
9. My best reception is in my car.
10. I haven't heard from anyone in a while that I "know".
11. Sometimes they try to get visible, scary ass shit.
12. No, I refuse to try and channel them, I'm a chicken.
13. Oh, and they like to eff up the radio.

UPCOMING FUN!!!

So ze snape and I are playing hookey and having us some big fun. Like the devout heathens we are, we are spending Good Friday driving to Reading Pennsylvania to see the US World Skate (see teeny pic above). She's gonna get her some Johnny "Weird" and I'll get my fill of Belben and Agosto. It's gonna rock. Then depending on my Marriott points, we may or may not stay. Saturday it's off to DC to the Tidal Basin for the photographer among us to take a zillion photos of the Cherry Blossoms. Can't wait! (Of course my laundry is overflowing, my house is a wreck, the dogs are shedding the winter coats, all in all the perfect time for company no?).

1. I love my ... younguns!
2. Looking in the mirror, I see ... an old lady, when did that happen?!
3. The best thing that happened to me this week was .... some hugs from my skating students.
4. Eating... is one of my favorite things to do!
5. I always have a good time .... with fondofsnape on vacation.
6. I'm looking for trash bags to clean the yards... this weekend.
7. "Oh, I'm bein' followed by a ... big fat ass".

13 crafts in my closet:

1. Crocheted antebellum doll dress (3/4 done) lost the directions.
2. Brown sweater started at the beach this summer (ripped out twice and still wrong).
3. Secret present (thinking of a better way to do it)
4. Chinese silk soakers for my blades (have all the stuff, haven’t touched it)
5. Glass bead necklace in amber and orange tones (used up the wire trying to crochet chain mail, long story, need more wire)
6. ¾ of a crocheted pink baby dress with white fur trim
7. ¼ of her scarf
8. 1 ½ socks
9. Ancient crewel-work Christmas skirt I started in 1977 I only have one more panel to go
10. Acrylic and oil paintings
11. ½ a blouse sewn
12. Material for a spring coat
13. There’s more but I’m disgusted with my short attention span!

The Weekend Wrapup

Friday - worked until 8pm oh yippee zippee doo dah. Brought work home, worked on the train home, worked on the train back this morning. Luckily forgot to bring the work with me to NY.

Saturday - left for NYC at 8:30, got to Kurt's house (after waiting 1 hour to get through the frickin Holland Tunnel and lower Manhattan) at 12:45. not so bad. We had lunch around the corner from his house at a lovely Japanese place. Had chicken teriyaki which was wonderful, they had that raw crap. Then back to the apartment to rest while they borrowed the car and ferryed stuff from the studio to storage. They raised the studio rent something ridiculous so he shut it down and will work from home exclusively. Luckily it's a 2 bedroom apartment. We never did get to the Fulton Fish market so back into the car to Manhattan to the Whole Foods to shop for our dinner. We made the infamous Lobster Bisque and Stuffed Clams from Dan's recipe. It was close but not his. We figured it was lacking the Jim Beam, beer and cigarette essence of the original chef. Had great Dancentric conversations then brilliant boy decides I need cheering up so we watched (cringed, hid through, and got sick over) Jackass 2. All I could think of was how easily that could have been brilliant boy up there on the screen. Off to bed.

Sunday - Dunkin Donuts coffee and donuts. I just love the fact you can walk to the corner and get anything you want. Then I cleaned the damn kitchen. Then we walked around the neighborhood picking up household odds and ends, like a butter dish and sugar bowl and lightbulbs. Saw the most awesome drugstore, it was in a renovated club, it had a disco ball on the ceiling!!!! Only in NY, I tell ya. Then back to lower Manhattan for a lunch date with an old gf of Kurt's who was leaving to go back to Hamburg. We had a great time at Katz's Deli. Got fondof a pic of Johnny Depp (too bad it was on my blurry camera phone). Then off to Far Rockaway to Beach 73 street where we remembered Dan and give him a sea gift of tobacco and rosemary. Dropped Kurt off back home and home for me by 8:45pm. Whew.

This is Dan's final resting place.

Question

Is it just me or are there times when certain people walk by in the office and their good morning leaves behind the distinct ring of "good morning, oh and Rosa I'm afraid poor Fletcher left you a little doggie muffin under the piano".

1. Don't you hate it when ... the dogs are in a very needy mood at night!
2. The best compliment I ever got was ... yesterday, a trainer thought I was in my 40s!
3. Why am I ... such a bad catch at ...eharmony!
4. The brain ... fascinates me.
5. This weekend I plan to .... drive up to NYC to share a memorial weekend with Kurt.
6. Smoking ... is one of my worst habits.
7. "From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows ...will probably scare the crap outta me".